im angry.

i gotta find things to do instead of being angry coz i get angry too much.

I am too much of a princess and like things to be my way. If you don't think the say way I do, tough luck coz you're way of thinking is WRONG.

ok

so

instead of being angry

be humble. coz i'm not always right. which sucks. But if i dont learn i wont grow. maybe that's why i'm so small.

I used to be forced to learn things which is how I became the way I am. I am not motivated to do anything at all if i am not interested in it. Even that 'big major reward' at the end wont interest me if i don't like what i have to do now to get there.

If i don't motivate myself to learn things i'll stay stuck. Which means I'll be behind in everything.

SO, open your ears Sarah, Open your brain and start learning stuff.

Otherwise you're screwed.

Anger is not biblical, nor was there ever an example set. Except for when the temple was being used to sell things etc.

I'm pretty sure the reasons for why I get angry are nothing close to that.

I get intimidated and I will not show it.

Get over yourself Sarah.

No really.

Show some respect.

Wish i had some photos to post for ya'll

Been working on jordans guitar.

i was soooooo wrecked today. Urgh, i didn't realize it until i got to his, fell asleep while watching Sherlock Holmes haha. I liked the movie though Robert Downey Jnr is one of my fave. If he was a bit younger then he.. In fact ...

ahhh. Lautner Wins, though RDj is awarded points for coolness. hehe.

Oh i have pics of guitar now.

The front and the neck..

we made it look like it was covered in bandages :D

Looks a bit lame now, but it'll be all sweet when it's done ^^

Anyway, I'm sick. I wanted to go out tonight but I was way too lazy, sooo just bummed at jordans, went home, drove, at dinner at 10:30, now it's like 12:17 and i'm hungry again.

Sleeping on the floor again, it's too hot in bed.

So, I've been trying to stay on the 'right side'. I don't see the point. I mean if "_ _" isn't respecting that why should I?

haha. ahh more thinking.

I also made up my mind.

It was a phase. like maybe things would've fallen into place, but I mean, yeah dunno.

things are good as it is.

ive eaten way too many oreos.

i want doritos and avacado dip with cheese and salsa

this makes me angry. Just had a full rant about it with anneliese. ARGH. some people are so ... blind.

it's called helping.

Especially when a country has so much to offer. I'm sure it's affordable.

pfft.

it makes me so so so angry.

seriously.

It's probably one of the few things that will ever stir me up this much.

idiot

baby poster.

ew

ew

ew

ew

ew

ew

ew

ew.

pUke.

i should sleep. i cant. grrrrrrrrrrrrr

im sick too.

bleh.

hungry

I WANT MACCAS.

please?

OH MAN.

i got a gift for ya'll

LOL.

OLD BLOGS FTW

http://daylightechoes.blogspot.com/

http://sunshine-00.blogspot.com/

http://lilshortiy.xanga.com/

oh dude.

le me show you some extracts.

"I wanna just leave this place n start somewhere new again. Especially for New year, which hapens to be TOMORROW, then My bday! woooot 17!"

December 30, 2006

"i dunno whats wrong with it all. I can't put it down in words at all. i dunno why im feeling like this... It hurts like hell to think that he can get over it so easily. I ono if I still have feelings for him.. or if i ever did"

December 24, 2006

"i hate it

so much.

i hate hate hate.

HATE.

Infact,

I wanna ... do something... violent.

I dont want it.

I dont care.

One day I'm gunna explode with it all. Or jump off a cliff, or run away.

I hate the world.

and almost eveyrhting in it.

U know what else? I can't even stand her voice. It reflects everything I'm not"

December 7 2006

LOL what a hater.

ok that's it. i'm like.. lolling on the inside.

some of the stuff i wrote was pretty harsh. haha but you know, what can you do

Dude, there is some deep stuff in my old blog. it's kinda scary. Scary that i look back at it now and.. see how much things have changed.

http://saraht90.xanga.com

wow

hardcore. its so old

wow, what was that. I really don't understand.

Today at work, i thought... I though it was someone it was not. When i heard it and turned around everything inside of me felt like fluttery.

Then i realized. And totally spent the rest of my shift thinking about it.

Urgh.

oh man.

what on earth.

I don't think this is healthy

I can't help it.

This song is pretty cool, i like her voice

anyway.

received these guys in the mail today

Definitely cool :D

Fishtank is looking pretty too, the plants are growing fast as and i got this stuff... its right at the bottom. You can see the fat fighting fish there, lol he's ACTUALLY SWIMMING

And made banana pancakes last night :D at like 10 lol

Watched surrogates today, Not that interesting. got a bit boring haha, but the end action bits were pretty funny. Bruce willis like bashes up one of them and you can see his skull, well robotic green blooded skull. haha

alright, i'm out

cheers

Batman: "If you can't spend it, money's just a lot of worthless paper, isn't it?"

So, I totally h ave been just bumming around watching movies and tv shows and drawing. It's like what i used to do at the end of year 12 lol. Kat's habits must be rubbing off on me.

Redid tank today, got sand in it now! water is still a bit murky though ): yuck.

Jordan helped me do most of it, coz i'm pretty retarded and can't even siphon water. haha

Grandparents came over for dinner :D means good food so yeah.. But I don't do very much at home anyway so i couldn't eat much.

I just finished season 1 of Parks and Recreation. It's very similar to the office. I liked it though, some of the characters I could relate to haha. One of the guys kept his cast on for an extra two weeks so his wife could serve him food. Come on, that's an awesome idea right?? As long as it doesn't happen to me then i'm ok.

ok time to work on pics (:

So, I started the prize. I haven't like .. ever drawn horses, had to get a ref for this one... going to be pretty pandora-like in regards to the bg etc. It'll be fun to paint i think!

Publish PostHelping to admin a site, made a couple of buttons, gotta figure out where to put it into the XML though (:

OKAY so to-do list

Birthday Presents

Denis- batman painting

Kat

Anneliese

Rachel Yap

Gope

Prizes

Masquerade for Rimfy

Ok that's a lot. Time to get started.

SO

MUCH

HAPPINESS

IT'S
DONE.

WOOOT

WOOOO

WOOOOOOOO

now to work on a bunch of birthday presents

:D

THANK YOU ANNELIESE! :D It's so big and awesome. I've got all of the ones you've given me (:

since. a long time. baha. this is like a reverse of the first one, riku was holiding the ploop :P

Anyway, The plants in my fishtank have grown. and lil dmck likes to just chill in the weed, or like next to the filter vent haha

These are Before and After. It's been like a week and it's grown so much! Not sure about the stuff growing of the stick though, it's a bit hard to tell. Theres like white stuff growing which looks like mould. lolol AND i think i'm feeding them too much, coz they are starting to look fat.

Ok, so today was pretty chill, didn't do very much at all. It was FOURTY ONE DEGREES CELCIUS. oh seriously.

ridiculous stuff.

I restarted painting something that was meant to be

done a while ago, as well as sketched batman a couple times on a new canvas i'm going to paint,

it's some pretty exciting stuff.

those lumps or brown are meant to be sacks, i'll probs change them to rocks or something else, the sacks fail a bit.

OH, also, i'm still on the long slow road of improvement. Whilst i haven't been able to do much practical art and stuff, I've been building on theory and reading up on different techniques.

Dad bought me this yesterday, they are pretty expensive, but there's something nicer about reading info from a magazine or book vs the internet. It's nice

having the hardcopy :)

There's the two of them. I got the one on the right from Merimbula neesagents because I was getting a bit bored, and the other from Borders. They cost so much =[!

There's really awesom stuff, this guy goes step by step on how he creates his matte paintings for movies and such, it's pretty detailed stuff too.

ALSO did you realize that today is 11012010 man, all these dates are really hard to read sometimes. I catogorise my photos by year, month, date, so it's like 20100111. Looks a little like some hardcore binary to me

Went on Saturday to the beach. Up in Portsea? About an hours drive from BH sort of area. Went to this back beach, and haha like usual there are always guys taht find plaes to jump off into water. This pic doesn't do it justice. There's only one part that's quite deep, so if you miss it you're a bit GG'd. I didn't have the guts to do it XD

Testing out the underwater-ness of my camera

A bit choppy, but it was okay. Saw a few fishies but not much XD

Ok, I'm out. Gotta keep painting and stuff!

Smell you later.

-Tonga

over it.

yep defs.

lautner.

church soon i am very awake.

flipping msgs.

I'd rather you not msg me when you're drunk. I'd rather not know. It's disgusting.

so please don't.

ergh.

Keep it up and you'll have a big decision to make soon.

I MISS YOU.

come back dammit.

Ty for all the msgs. hehe. i'm happy you do.

I AM PRETTY ANGRY WORK IS SCREWING ME OVER.

NO JOKE.

ARGH.

*punch*

I look forward to the day that I look upon this company and laugh.

Wait till the aliens invade. I'll tell them that you are the 'masters and elders of this world'. So that they think by destroying you all they are 'overtaking' and then they leave.

SACRIFICE.

Thanks guys.

oh and btw. I 'forgot' to clock out.

pffch.

ok so prev post was angry coz i was angry.

So time for an update, recently it's been heaps busy. Anyway.

Christmas was epic.

Spent the morning at church, the band was so small!! there were 3 people. =="
everyone had been away, back to Singapore, Msia, Indo or ... yeah thats about it. A bunch of people went to America and stuff though. LUCKY!! White Christmas n stuff.

Anyway, after church, I went over to Daves place for this EPIC LUNCH.

seriously all types of meat. and it was goooooood. I can't find the cord for my phone to computer, but dave sent me this photo.

I made 3 platters for the lunch, just of everything and a seafood one.

No pictures, a bit boring.

Anyway, then dinner @ cousins house. I didn't eat very much SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FULL.

oh man.

OK MEDIA DUMP.

yes. ARRAIGNMENT. noob mx lol!

I found this on my phone. Dave was going to some lan party haha, and i was at the beach, so i left him this msg. how cool am i!

yeah one of the things HON is missing is minigames. RVS. *sigh*

Next update will be of falls when i get the time.